Don't stop believe.

Recent year wasn't the best one for me, problems with health, incomprehension from beloved ones etc. did not help me. I felt very weak, my body has changed totally and my minds too but the changes chose wrong direction. My mind was full of strange, dangerous, even scary thoughts. Of course I knew that it is not good but my right thoughts fought a loosing battle with the dark ones. When I realized what I have done with me I was terrified. I persuaded myself how stupid, worthless and ugly I am. It was the worst thing - I really belived in those words.

One day I thought about new-wrong me and I was so annoyed at me, I couldn't institute worse image of myself, I pondered pros and cons of my mindless and regrettable view of my person. In a results I decided to come back to previous shapes . So from now on I'm strong, self-confident and aware of my worth again.

Now I must do my best to help my dreams come true, I will work over every dream and achieve most of them, there is no thing more important than me, my plans and dreams at the moment. Yeap, maybe it is egoism but I don't want to do everything for others, now I want to have a lot of time for me. I'm aware this part of my life is very significant so it's a good time to use my possibilities to expand knowledge, just taking care of my needs and wholly believe in myself.

When you need something to believe in, start with yourself.

Believe in yourself and all that you are. Know that there is something inside you that is greater than any obstacle. - Christian Larson.

If you think you can - you can, and if you think
 you cannot - you're wrong.

                                     

Free days.

I have 4 free days due to yesterdays All Saints Day. Of course we visited cemeteries and lighted a candles an many graves yesterday. I like this tradition but I think that people should remember about these who passed away not only once a year and take more care about graves of thier family. Members of my family (especially my Mother) visit graveyard very often.

We still did not get any information about Łukasz... he's wife has visited fortune-teller, and he told her that Łukasz is still alive and he just wants to rest in some peacefull place... I hope it's truth.

The day before yesterday someone appeared near our house... small and lovely kitty, we decided to save and take care of him. We named him Felix ;).

At Halloween evening I just met my friend with red wine and talks at his place so I did not have to wear special scary clothes, lack of my make-up was enough horrific look ;)