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Sometimes everything loses its meaning because of one thing.
I can not blame anyone - it was my mistake and I know it. I need to stop cheating myself.

I feel very down but I know that I can change it, I just need some power from somewhere.

Today's mood - don't think just work.  

:)

Time flies&people lies

I feel so good and so bad at once. Yeep, I'm a women so it's my right, yes? ;D

I have organized my time already. My work and my lessons ale already planed also.

Twice time a week I'm at German language lessons and once I'm at English language lesson.
I'm also considering some singing lessons but I'm not sure so many things will work together. It seems to be easy, just work and lessons but I admit it is not. Maybe it's OK when someone's work looks littlebit different. I go to work for all day or for all night and then I have two free days. I don't complain I'm happy about my work ;) Photos were chosen some time ago so you can see my 'brand new' rabbits who are totally awesome, black one is she and her name is Tosia, name borrowed from my friend who has a dog also named like that. White rabbit is Janusz, my brother is his owner, his rabbit is more polite than my Hahaha ;)

Plans.

 Finally I belived in my dreams and relized that I cannot follow the crowd.

Since I thought about my studies  I had one aim : scandinavian languages. In Poland we have 2 or 3 universities where the langages are thought, there are just 30 places for one academic year in this 'clasess' every year at once it gets more popular so many people want to get there and majority had to change thier plans but not me ;)

This year I think I don't start this studies, simply : I don't get to swedish philology because it's too much people with better results and most of them wrote german langage mature exam and they are prepared better than me so I decided to do not change my dreams and plans for studies and I will try to get there next year but up-coming year I want to use to do my best for german and english langage and then improve my matura results ;)

Happily I passed all exams so I don't need to prepare once more to polish langage and maths-  puihhh! ;D

I decided to not try to get to some other studies because now I'm interested in just in Swedish Philology, and do not want to just be a student I WANT TO STUDY AND BE HAPPY ABOUT IT.

Time to come back again ;)

Finally I can back here, normal it's nothing special to write a blog, because everyone can write about it what it's want but during 3 months I felt that I used to share my minds here and  I really missed but I was too busy to focus also on blog. I had a lot of to do land I did of course ;D

My matura exams were very nice, I know I did not my best but I'm happy that it's gone to the past. 

I must admit that all stress coused by all exams is much bigger month or 2 weeks before but right exam days are in a good mood mostly. I was very upset after my written polish language exam and still I'm not sure about a results. Although I don't care too much about result s from this exam because it's a kind of exam which I can re-take in some other date, but I could be very upset when it could comes about math -  happily math exam went better as oral exams - polish language -90% and english language - 97%  =)

Another news is - I found a job! Yeaah, I'm a receptionist at some campsite in the vincity of Kraków, I hvce just 20min. by bus to get to the work !
I think it's enough for now. More details in up-coming weeks ;)

crazy-lazy time

Enough.
Have no power, no idea, no time.
I do nothing and I feel lost in my own worl. Yes, yes I complain for longer time without an end, what is more - it's just a beginning, every day it gets worse and worse. But - no worries I'll take it easy after first week of May when finally I sit my 3 exams: Polish language, Maths and English after them I sit Geography exam at 14th of May and then 21st and 24th of May I will do just oral exams - English and Polish - I hope it will be much easier ;-) 

Yesterday I made another order from Yves Rocher and I can't wait for delivery - I'll get very nice shampoo, shower gels, custards and so on. As a gift from them I will get  watch and some serum to put under tired eye - great way to improve look of face after all day. 

Most of my time I sepend on reading nice books, learning maths and checking our Polish Nightwish Forum where are many kind, talented and funny people.

Here is the German Chicken Poster which me and Guczi did last week for German classes ;)

The photo shows in very very right way how I feel.

and haha! Thanks to wonderful spring we can use wintery clothes still ;-D